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| Low Valleys |
| 10.16.05 (2:20 pm) [edit] |
My alternator died.
I have a few more characters to get in Smash. Pikachu is the man! Woman? O_o
I am poor again, gotta pay for things, and I got the haori and kimono outfit from Bleach!
Come on Halloween!
So, life has been interesting. I am getting my wisdom teeth pulled out Thursday and supposedly you bleed a lot, you�re really tired, do not know half that day what you�re doing, and I have a class that night so I do not know what I am supposed to do. Good thing I found a driver though to drop me and pick me up. Or else I would have had to walk home and I could see myself doing some really stupid stuff back home lol.
My feet hurt cause of my stupid race track shoes. I think I reformed my feet with high arch support, I do not know.
I missed the Relient K concert Friday; Jo-el said it was really awesome. That would have been a really good concert to go to.
So the question comes down to� what is who you are and what is what you can be? Like gender, sexuality, personalities, tendencies, addictions, passions?
I have always trusted in a simple truth about the resurrection of Jesus Christ. What makes him so different beyond so many other things was how he brought himself back to life. That is the core of the New Testament. If Christ never came back to life, Xianity has no backbone at all. What can the other beliefs out there provide that is more awesome than power over life? Pardoness, forgiveness, holiness.
Cannot wait for the PS3.
Not being in school sucks.
Ok, I am done now.
Ciao.
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| Double posting |
| 10.13.05 (7:05 am) [edit] |
Go to my xanga!!!! www.xanga.com/yahwehiseternal
You can post on either one.
SO i decided today that i'm a man of many looks anywhere from my hair to my style and you know what, that's me. Goth, prep, pimp, athletic, whatever i feel. That means i've also decided the best way to describe me is in two words: Christian Emo. i'm a christian by faith and a emo day in day out. Don't like emos? Sorry... although i will probably not do the whole girl pants thing... i mean first off it's wierd to be in the girls' section anyways and secondly i'm way too fat to fit in those pants anyways. Lol. i dont know sometimes how guys can fit their package into them girl pants. oh well. o_O
i remember Married with Children, gosh were those some old times. Oprah bah... oops dang ADD.
ok, so this is my emo post.
when i see you and you look at me then flash/blink you look away, it lingers that did you do that personally?
or when you push me away and get angry, did i hurt you that bad?
when we talk and argue for minutes at a time, is it worth it?
when i think of the times we could've done something and we didn't, my heart dives and smashes to the ground.
when i watch you pass by, and you say nothing to me, and i watch you pass again, and you don't even notice me, i die.
i see you all laugh and joke, slap and hug, smile and poke, and wonder what does that feel like?
i wish you could call me once and want to hang out with me.
ok, btw if you haven't noticed i'm posting on xanga again. i will post both on tblog and xanga, so if you have a xanga post here. if you dont you can post on tblog.
IHS
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| Dang it, it's 2 days late |
| 10.09.05 (7:32 pm) [edit] |
So.
Today was the coolest day.
Got to see DQ Thomas (Drama Queen) with his friend at wafflehouse and i got the Waffle AllSlam or something and it was mmmmm delicioso besides the grits (BLAH). And then, after the horrendous 4 day wait of the spectacular 52-53 episodes special of Bleach, i watched it before work and oh my gosh, ORGASMIC. it was so great and man i can't wait for Ichigo to get full power, man he is going to slam.
in other news, i got to hang out iwth the Stolts and play some GC and it was great!!!! This happened thursday night and i hanged out wiht them before and after for a little it was great :) And we ate these big tortilla sandwich thingies bean and cheese mmmmm i had only one it was sooo good, hot, and i was so full. it was just so great to hang iwth them, wrestle (cept Paul kept hitting my cartilage ring) and just to smile.
um i worked 15 hours friday, man that was rough. not really Lee and Thomas are good workers and Fred and Deon were being good so it wans't that hard of a night, just COLD. i got to wear my trench coat so it was great!
um... gosh i dont know if there is anything thought provoking right now.
Which is better old testament or new testament?
Um ok guess thats it.
bye.
IHS
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| TiVo or not to Tivo |
| 10.05.05 (5:02 pm) [edit] |
MMMM ramen soup. Gonna be my main meals next few months.
Anyways, today Richard taught a lesson about letting things take over, for one: Tivo. But for me television isn't my priority anymore. i have stumbled into the vast world of Gaming. Not only can it be mesmerizing, addicting and time consuming, like Richard said it could Run Your Life. Unfortunately, i think that is happening with me. I just got a Game cube and man is it HOT, but not only that just got two games for it and what have you, but that's not the point. Outside of hours of leveling needed to play Lineage 2, hours needed to update all my info on Smash and then Power tennis, not only that play the ps2 games i have, and work, and shower... well I don't really have time for the important things... talking on line to Brethren, mentoring, counseling, confiding, and most importantly spending time with God whether prayer or studying. I've really noticed this today as i was supposed to past couple days read up for my FBI class many chapters in the Bible, but i have slacked off tremendously and it sucked. Oh yeah, and working out/ bike riding. That takes about 3-4 times a week, 1-2 hours day. There's just too much, way too much to hold on this plate, and one day it's just going to fall and burst.
So why did Ricky waste all this space? Well it comes to am i going to give up something for something better perspectively? I mean i could make a certain amount of time a week i can play on line... that's really hard to do though, especially if you clan wants you to be X level or play X amount a time a week. I really like console games and i have done it before where i could play and be able to study and have God all with good time. But the inclusion of on line gaming... man. I do not know, i really like it... ugh.
So which is more important the Old Testament or the New Testament?
Had a really good conversation with Diego on line and there is one good trait i think he has, he's a good listener. He may like to argue, LOL, but he's a good listener when you want someone to talk to.
Joel is really smart, like he knows all of these insane words, and he's read the whole Bible i think he said, (even though he doesn't know some of the events i was talking about), and he can tell you about all these wars, and history and etc, and talk good Spanish for a white boy. LOL. He's also a good friend :)
And Travis, man, if you want some encouragement or a big bear hug or even a kiss lol he's there for ya. Just a butt pat away and he's there. He has a signature saying, has a BIG smile, wrestles for fun, but don't touch his glasses, they are his second girlfriend. Oh wait, first? Lol. And he knows tons about Smash Bros.
The list can go on about my friends that i have in life, i hope i can get to know them even better. They have been a major support in my life, and even so that i wish i was 5 yrs younger so i could be their age and maybe have grown with them. I love you Brethren.
On other notes, i might be needing another accountability partner.. the one i have is making big choices in life i think but to keep it short, we haven't talked in weeks about what we need to and this isn't the first time. I really need it in my life, mostly for encouraging, and also I am looking for a teacher too. So yeah, thats enough for now.
By the way, Ritz chips are great!
IHS
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| Viewitful Joe |
| 10.03.05 (9:27 pm) [edit] |
Um.. hard game, neat... but nothing to Devil May Cry 3 or...
or...
you guessed it...
SUPER SMASH BROS!!!!!!
Yes i got my GC oh yeah go Ricky go Ricky go Ricky
Had a interesting weekend besides the fact of eating burnt bar b q (i mean comeon now, thats an incredible feat to do, and no I DIDNT burn it) and getting so pathetically smashed in Smash Bros, that was about it. OH except those long nights into the morning with Sean and Deigo and man we had some good talk.
Let's see... if nothing separates you from the love of CHrist, can you commit suicide and still live?
Do all dogs go to heaven? Rather are there pets in heaven?
Why settle for the blessings of this world when you can have the real ones in heaven?
Are all sexual thoughts bad? Even SSA thoughts? LIke a guy saying hey you got good looks? Is that bad to say? GIrls do it don't they about each other, why is it bad for guys? Or is that consider homsosexual and you're screwed?
Can God change His plan for you?
If we're handpicked, does God handpick some for hell?
Wow, so many neat questions!
ok i think thats it for now.
What do yall think?
OH BTW i think i know who ^_^ is.... NATHAN......
IHS :)
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| Mentor? Gamecube? Tittie Twister? |
| 09.28.05 (7:52 pm) [edit] |
Waiting for my GC. Yeah I bought one: Platinum GC, two controllers, some game, and all the hookups for the low price of 75 bucks. WHOOT! I can’t wait, where is it, OH MR UPS MAN… or FEDEX? Maybe just the postal guy/chick, but last time I got mail was like at 430 pm, what the fudge? I mean come on, mail used to come at like noon….
On lighter news, I just was horribly beat at Smash Bros. Like, face through the dirt, head banged on the floor, and brain just drained. Therefore, I need to practice.
Mormon theology is tripped up… I mean they believe God is human just like you and me. However, if man is flesh and bones, and flesh and bones came from dust, and God created dust… then did God create Himself? Whoa. Creepy. What if God had parents… He did not (Is. 48). Even so, John from work, man, he says even though he agrees with me how they are wrong he is still going to believe it. What the fudge. I mean, come on… are people that blind? I tried to reach to his human side and showed him how he would be taking people by the hand to no-God land… and he said no I wouldn’t that’s how YOU SEE it… no that’s how the Bible sees it. I do not know, pray for him that he does not continue to blind his self. Ignorance is bliss.
So today at WNL (Wednesday night live) we had a great discussion about mentors. I have come to realize I have lost mine and that may be affecting me tons. Although: “My mentors are the dead people from these books” – Kent. I wonder if theological type books can really be that good. I know it is not the same as with a human, but there are many things that do not appeal to me and I get really bored of. I hope one day I could be a mentor, because I had to really think about if I had one and I do not. It blows chunks. Mark is so cool, he gave me a big bear hug out of nowhere, besides that darn Max giving me a tittie twister, grrr for like 5 minutes. It was horrendous and then I stole his shoe, and then my phone came flying out, and then we did a trade and man, I was tired. Oh and then Amber made me dance to this weird icebreaker song during worship time and I was dancing like a maniac and stepped on people and joy. That was random.
How important do you think a mentor is?
Going back home this weekend!!! I am excited, I get to see mom, dad, sis, Tim, tom, and others. I miss them tons. Although I will not be able to chill with the homies up here, I get to see my long lost homies down there, and some familia. (Sorry Joel I cannot put the little ‘ above the i in familia, sorrrrrry) You are awesome Joel; you know I am kidding. I will beat you in Smash dude. Ok well that is the news. God be with you.
IHS
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| Writing to write |
| 09.25.05 (10:24 am) [edit] |
Yes, i agree, writing everyday, line for line, waht you exactly did from the moment you woke up, scratched your butt, and then went to go pee to relieving yourself, washing your hair, brushing your teeth and jamming to Relient K before you sleep is so boring.
Therefore, when i post, it should be only the cool stuff. Please comment.
Ok, so i'm watching Final Fantasy Advent Children after i just came from a great church service. i really hope i start finding my path in the church and the ministries cause i feel like i'm wasting away. i think i'm doing the right thing, but sometimes you look around, and you just dont' know what card you'll play, fearing that you might be hurt. Man, this movie is so awesome, makes me want to go buy a bike, and a 6 foot length, 2 foot wide sword and grow my hair longer and find a hot chic Aeris lol. Man the music is really good. i think i may of ran away from a serving oppurtunity, i dont know. as i half-kneeled overwhelmed by my emotionless attitude, i prayed for the hurricane of emotions to overwhelm me during the worship experience of praise. Yet, nothing could come. Have i been dulled, my spirit darkened, my joy drained and twisted out? Where art Thou? Man, when this movie comes out in English, it's going to rock!
In other news, once my phone rebate comes in i'm so getting a Platinum Gamecube with the best games, you know like Smash Bros Melee. i mean, that's a given. And getting it les than what you guys paid for it, HAH! Their are tons of multiplayer games that are so awesome on the gamecube thats the main reason i want it. And not only that, i have to get good again so i can be a challenge to max and travis, imean man they are Melee Heroes or somehting.
oh i'm poor now. i thought i'd be doing good moneywise working full time and what have you... yeah RIGHT. Maybe it's cause God "cursed my money since i haven't been tithing properly", as so Pastor Gary says. Not only am i paying off a dentist bill but also my credit bill. Credit cards are from the devil. So it's goign to be PB & J sandwiches, ramen, and maybe some other meat sandwiches for a while. And for the next few months till January, i'll be in the dentist's office biweekly.
Um, braindead.
leave a message
*beep*
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| Is this me? |
| 09.24.05 (6:57 am) [edit] |
Your Power Color Is Magenta
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At Your Highest:
You energize yourself and push others to suceed.
At Your Lowest:
You feel frustrated and totally overwhelmed.
In Love:
You are suprised by who you attract. You're a love magnet.
How You're Attractive:
Open and free spirited, people want to explore the world with you.
Your Eternal Question:
"What is my next source of inspiration?"
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| Famous quotes |
| 09.20.05 (8:52 pm) [edit] |
"If a man can't give a hug to another man, he has low self-esteem." -- J o el Tras dale
"Oh well, we wont' know that i'm wrong till judgment day. Then i'll have my second chance to make up for it." --Mormon dude
"There is no other God before me or after me, I AM HE." --Bible
"Whose TFK?" --J o el again. :)
"What 4500 dollars in dental bills..." --talking to myself
"Go to the dentist while you still can." --me again
"You won't win Ricky." --Track employee
"Hey you cheated, you unpluggled my car." --Track employee again
"Don't hate the player, hate the game. :) Brain over brawn baby!" --Me.
kk, who agrees with if a man can't hug a man he's messed up?
Comment, vote, have fun :)
IHS
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| Resurfacing |
| 08.31.05 (6:16 pm) [edit] |
Thank God for friends
Thank God for super smash melee
Thank God for the cool breeze
Thank God for super smash melee
Thank God for hope
Thank God for super smash melee
Thank God for love
Thank God for super smash melee
Thank God for my Brethren
Thank God for super smash melee
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Did i say super smash melee yet?
"... without friendships you are incomplete. If you have them, strengthen them. If you don't have them, do whatever is necessary to make them."
Thank you Joel, Travis, Max, Cole, Mark, Mark, Trevis, and Amber for the great times at youth, the fellowship, the Super smash melee, and just being a friend. Did i say super smash melee? *scratches head* SUPER SMASH BROS MELEE!
Having realized its my mission to keep strong friendships, its not just about me but what i can do for others, even if i sacrifice myself.
Poll:
Should greeting time during church service be lengthened, shortened or stay the same?
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| Break |
| 04.05.05 (10:32 pm) [edit] |
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Temporarily postponed until future notice.
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| Looking to tomorrow |
| 04.02.05 (9:56 pm) [edit] |
Saturday 04.02.05 [3:44 am] delete entry | edit entry
(Pardon me paul for sharing this, but it has been a crucial part in my life.)
"Lord, thank you for Ricky in my life, he is such a blessing..."
Lord, thank you for Paul, for he has done things for me in my walk that none have done before. His heart is full of love that i haven't seen in a while, and his soul is so compelling and contagious. You are beautifully shown in Him, yet i know that it barely reveals you.
i struggled past few months with a thought...
what do i look forward to: tomorrow, next year, when i graduate, etc.
and it came to a point where i would say... "to level up my spellsinger".
that would be my motivation, a video game. pathetic.
when paul prayed this about me, i broke inside and God revealed:
Ricky, you affect people, for Me. i havent' felt so humbled and happy that i still affect people, cause truthfully i havne't felt that way in a long time. the ones back home i was involved with, especially the one i opened up my heart to the first time, he got into college, and got really busy. not blaming him, but the heart talks we had, the hugs we shared, the prayers given, we're so full of blessings. i miss those. even still, God is using Paul in my life, and i'm so thankful and blessed.
i look to tomorrow:
to help my friends and others strengthen their walk with Christ, to surpass me (which means nothing), and to be an even better Christlike child than i am, for i know i'm so far, but i desire to see others grow like no tomorrow.
thats my hope.
those are my tears, tears of desire and happiness.
IHS
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| i dont want to feel pain |
| 04.02.05 (5:32 pm) [edit] |
All i want to do is lash out,
lash out at those that assume,
lash out at those that judge me with no foundation,
lash out at the ignorant.
yes i'm different,
i was made unique.
as time goes on,
i dont want to be.
too much friction, tension, pain,
the more i'm me,
the more i hurt.
i really want to be ur friend,
but i feel the closer spiritually i am,
the farther you're pushed away.
so many factors that prevent me
from really having fun with you,
all i want,
is a brother.
but it doens't matter does it?
it just matters what is best for you,
and what is thought what you want,
yet is it?
is this what you want?
all these rules and regulations?
why did God put you there?
why am i so hurt.
all i want is a friend,
one that is like those in the Bible,
who spend time with you
and enjoy you.
yet i feel i'm not trusted,
i feel just cause i'm older,
or cause i live on my own,
i have to be treated differently.
Well SORRY that my best friend
is younger than me,
it's only four years,
yet should we remain so?
i dont want to cuase you pain,
i dont want to feel pain.
that's how i feel sometimes, just like it's my fault.
i think sometimes i want it to be my fault, cause then it would be easier.
this may of not been my fault, but it would of been easier if it was.
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| Movie |
| 03.23.05 (7:20 pm) [edit] |
Ladder 49, see it.
Final cut was good too.
IHS
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| Aim |
| 03.08.05 (10:30 pm) [edit] |
Spring break conisted of the past 4 days: friday-monday for me. and they flew, like no other day i can remember. sunday night i realized, driving home, i spent 48 hours with one friend, some others on the side, but one that helped me start my deep walk with the Lord, the one that secondly, to God, got to know my heart inside out. i still pour out to this day the gratitude to God and him of his love and sincerity to me. as time goes by though, i am smacked hard by how i see his and other Brethren's life, and yet i cry out for my own also:
Without a creator, one with an ultimate purpose with you in mind, why live?
Everything else will fade away, even this emotion love between two humans, for it is a love that needs to be given back, or else lost? i mean, how could u love/marry someone who does not love you back?
Riches, titles, possessions: will u ever be satisfied?
Having just enough, and nothing more, never being challenged to go on to bigger and better things... (like one who stays in his computer gaming hole and never comes out, never realizes life and it's tragedy and hope, never opens his eyes beyond this moment, and then when it happens, will he see God from afar? will it be too late?)
those silently letting nearby friends/families go to hell...
so many to reach out to, when will we step up?
i am grieved to see my brethren not challenging their own friends they see daily in their views on life, God and death. to stick with it, and never give up... longsuffering.
im in pain.
IHS
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| Stereotypes |
| 02.28.05 (7:35 pm) [edit] |
(In Adolescence 1301, talking about sexuality and teen pregnancies, and the debate between abstinence or contraceptive sex education emphasizes, including religious beliefs that influence individual choices)
Prof.: So religious beliefs positively affect adolescents in their choices towards sex, in that they are less likely to have sex, have it at a later age then the average, and even help more in service projects. Though, if he/she decides to have sex, they are more likely to have it unprotected.
Bill: Are there any studies that show that the reason why they choose not to have sex is because they fear the wrath of God or fear the wrath of their parents?
Prof.: That may be so, but it depends on the individual and circumstance, being that it could be either/or, maybe even a mixture of both.
((As i sit and am feeling an overwhelming cup of anxiety, i ponder why the world sees fear as a bad thing. i'm not sure if i should speak, even to the point of afraid of being challenged... so i wait.))
Prof: Blah blah blah, i forgot, lol... and so the fear probably would affect why religious adolescents choose not to concede to sex early in their life...
((Now the anxiety is too uncompromising to the fact that people think of fear wrong! Especially if you want to get in the "religious" factor))
Me: Define fear.
Prof.: (Basically) A feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the presence or imminence of danger.
Me: What about the other aspect of fear? Could it not be positive also, reverence, respect, i mean...
Bill: THat would be the religious aspect in the OT (rolls his eyes)
Me:... wasn't that what you wanted?!? i mean, fear doesn't have to be a bad thing, fear could be a good thing as in something that's...
Some girl: (basically testifies on how her and her beliefs she sees that it's a good thing in her faith and how she she's it as good to refrain from sex...)
(( so i never get a response nor finish any statement. i got over anxiety though today.))
Is fear just the first definition? A feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the presence or imminence of danger.
What about the second one? Extreme reverence or awe, as toward a supreme power.
Oh and a sidenote:
Professor taught that some methods works in one situation, and the other method may work in other situations. How does that corelate with the Bible? Are there different methods? Like emphasizing contraceptives vs. abstinence. We are taught that sex before marriage is not in God's plan nor right in His eyes, and in His judgements. But of course, you can't apply these standards to those that dont believe in God, can you?
IHS
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| How big is He? |
| 02.17.05 (11:18 am) [edit] |
Chronicles of Narnia
Prince Caspian - Return of the Lion
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"Welcome, child," he said.
"Aslan," said Lucym "you're bigger."
"That is because you are older, little one," answered He.
"Not because you are?"
"I am not. But every year you grow, you will find me bigger."
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Our mind as a child can only handle so much because of our finite nature. As we grow, study, spend time, and read with/about God, we barely start to understand His vastness. Even the set years we have, we will only understand a needle prick width of God, if that, but that was way more than what we new before.
IHS
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| Something more...2 |
| 02.14.05 (6:38 pm) [edit] |
For the choir director. A Psalm of David. In You, O LORD, I have taken refuge; Let me never be ashamed; In Your righteousness deliver me. Incline Your ear to me, rescue me quickly; Be to me a rock of strength, A stronghold to save me. For You are my rock and my fortress; For Your name's sake You will lead me and guide me. You will pull me out of the net which they have secretly laid for me, For You are my strength. Into Your hand I commit my spirit; You have ransomed me, O LORD, God of truth.
(Psalms 31:1-5)
God is my love, my strength, my ultimate encouragement. He will test me, and then he will deliver me, to try me, and embolden me.
Even though, the situation is estranged,
i know for sure God put you in my life,
and here you are,
i can't believe my eyes.
The love you give,
is something so pure,
the care you share,
i want much more.
i gave up on myself,
but now i see,
that you haven't
given up on me.
i praise God,
for my friend you are,
please forgive me,
and keep being Christlike just like you are.
IHS
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| Something more |
| 02.10.05 (10:04 pm) [edit] |
Formed by the Ultimate hands,
concieved by His choice.
Not knowing much around,
Hey, i'm a boy.
Few years past, looking around,
understand things i shouldn't be,
staring at mom on the ground,
puking under the toilet seat.
Staring into the eyes of a man,
the one called father,
not knowing to run to my mom's hands,
i just want to cry out to my mother.
Mind goes blank to my action,
years skip on to divorce of my parents,
too young to be experiencing of all of this,
ignorance is bliss.
Living with my mom and sis,
not a stable home for a male,
visit dad's every now and then,
most times just want to bail.
Living life by every night,
out with those who mean to me,
running, breaking, and smoking,
is this what life is supposed to be?
Something more...
Staring at the wall in the shower,
crying out my soul,
stare at the blade in my hand,
wishing i had a different home.
Life of pride, greed, immorality,
yet realize strengths i gain,
knowledge, guts and care,
are they all in vain?
Moved with dad,
fear of fights,
starting all over again,
yet i gave up my life.
A true Man who keeps His promises,
a Mother who listens and cares,
take my life and make it yours,
now you can help me bare.
A hole so deep,
a rabbit would get lost,
A well so full,
the water is worth all the cost.
i search for those that that are in the hole,
those that are deep in the water,
so few take the chance,
sometimes i don't want to bother.
My strengths are now used for good,
my wisdom, guts and care,
yet through tongue they come,
and times that i didnt wnat to dare.
Every year a lost of a good friend,
one time "youre a cool friend, when you dont talk"
other time crying and yelling at another,
and last one just walked.
Something more...
College gave me a gift
a depth that was given to me
i loved so and am honored
yet it challenged who to be.
Look aroudn for the Love
that should be displayed by those of Him
yet so far lacking and fed milk
just want to stand on the rim.
Still remember the two from home
who are original in all their ways
came to know and love as Brothers
yet they are so far away.
Alone, alone i stand to be
looking for those of Him,
His love through them shown brightly?
yet looks so dim.
Those that i grow to know
have been those that most accepting
the thing that hurts me the most
is that they're not of Thee.
THere is one that is younger than me
yet challenges me in my walk
yet i feel i mislead him
through selfish talk.
i spent some nights
in deep fellowship with thee,
yet the time that was so great
was taken from me.
Four years difference it only is
but i feel like others make it key
maybe i'm not what i'm supposed to be
maybe like all the others, you and me aren't supposed to be.
There must be something more...
IHS
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| 02.05.05 (8:00 pm) [edit] |
"Don't blame the dark for being dark, blame the light for not shining on the dark."
-xxxchurch
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| Drifting away... |
| 01.26.05 (7:42 pm) [edit] |
Yes, i can take the time to take a dumb test but i cant take the time to udpate my blow wtih something meaningful. Lazy? i guess.
Two jobs, full time school, new computer, updating my computer, LOTR Third Age, angry at the horrible ending, Dmitri got me 3 games for my PS2, a little of a month left on my blockbuster game pass, got books week after school started, a few all nighters here and there, missing the Heights for 8 weeks now, and still looking for some frens to be my encouragement and my supporters that i can spend time with and help make me smile, and live within a 5 mile radius (sorry guys like Paul, dewayne, tim and tom i guess, diego i guess, john i guess). i have my discipler and i do take some under my care by the Lords grace, but i dont have many to call me up and tell me lets hang out, me and you, or how have you been doing, do you need a shoulder... am i needy? or is that just human nature.
i see a few issues:
1) there are many bible beaters out there. unfortunately. by crying the fires with brimstones and hell, by threats and compulsions we hope to bring those to God. sounds a little like the Pharisees. By our love is how we should be bringing others to God, and reproofing Brethren in times of need... so then, is sharing who God is why He IS coercion, or showing care and compassion to others to tell them of our creator and our love?
2) Morals without absolutes are relative, and if relative morals are true, than you cant say mine are wrong and vice versa. if thats true, Hitler is a cool guy, he stood up for his morals.
3) Christians experienced hard lives too, even though we seem that we are perfect. We are in a process of perfection, learning through wise men or by experience, so forgive us of our ignorance, but dont forget we were just like you when our eyes were blind and our ears deaf. i was blind to so many things, very stubborn, very selfish, and the Lord revealed that and put a light in the dark corner of my life.
4) Why would you deny God when your forefather turned his back on Him, and now God, by the Lord Jesus Christ, He has put that aside and gave us our ultimate break by His grace to be with Him again?
i miss my Barlow, he teaches me so and my pool is lightly wet.
i miss a fren, one to be a large part in my life, even if its a few.
i miss reading, such a large part of my life.
i miss being 20 lbs lighter, my pants actually fitted.
tomorrow, when SBC job ends, Lord grant me to come at a better place.
IHS
Ricky
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| Me? |
| 01.23.05 (1:11 pm) [edit] |
You Are a Newborn Soul |
You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.
On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.
You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.
Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.
Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.
You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.
You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.
Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.
Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul
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what do u think?
You Have A Type A- Personality |
A-
You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.
When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds |
is this better?
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| Enemy |
| 12.21.04 (5:33 am) [edit] |
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The Church's main enemy is itself.
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| 12.18.04 (11:51 pm) [edit] |
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All around me i see nothing. no love. no care. no Christ. Christ isn't visible in his human form anymore, and i still ponder do i see his Body? i used to... when i first was apart of BSM. i saw most of his foot, kicking my beliefs and stomping on my faith, only for it to come back and be stronger. gone. nothing. patience they say... something will come. maybe it's apart of this brokeness i've spoken and heard of. left with nothing. nothing anyways to rise my flame. the flame will never go out, how small it is is i wonder where it is. found out, that friends will only pay attn. if you really mean something to them... guess i really dont mean anything to anyone, cept that one dear back home WHO DOESN"T EVEN BELIEVE IN GOD yet treats me better than any Xian i know. nothing. maybe i am nothing, and God is just playing me as a tool, like Judas. nothing.
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| End. |
| 12.07.04 (7:29 pm) [edit] |
i've decided that since so many ppl view this and leave nothing, and that i have frens that view this and comment nothing, i'm ending it.
May God challenge your faith.
IHS
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